Ray Charles

Hey I know it's cheesy to see a movie and then be all like "this is so cool" but I am...



I saw Ray about 2 weeks ago and it was so good I went out and bought some Ray Charles music (not the soundtrack by the way).  Perhaps not surprising, it is amazing.  Ray is a little out of my generation, but it is damn good music.



So if you're out there impulsing buying the latest Jessica Simpson "Look at my giant Knockers" CD, consider a little Ray Charles soul too.  It will probably last longer.

A note from my daughter

I could not love you more Dad.  I Love you to micro pieces I Love you, full bag of Love! to : Dad

A brief theory of Time

If we think of all Time as an ocean where all "moments" are like individual water molecules, then living any moment (any *possible* moment) is only a matter of putting yourself physically in the right place of the time ocean.  Each adjoining moment is related to other so by hopping from related moment to the next you create line the forms what we individually perceive as a time line.  Exactly which moment we jump to is mostly likely defined by probability.  Like a current of electrons flowing in a large conductive media we flow through the time ocean.  Our perception is of where we've been and vague idea about where we're going--a line.

Now the number of possible paths is infinite (or so large as to be nearly infinite).  Do we each have out own lines?  Is my past unique to the path I took and no other consciousness has followed me here?  Or has an infinite number of "me's" followed me to this point and now we're all branching off in the many possible directions?  Or does this universe blaze a trail through the ocean that we all share in?  With perhaps many other universes doing the same?

If I could go back and find the exact time ocean moment of my conception and prevent it, I could conceivable have no impact at all, for what I have more likely done is jump to a different moment where I was not conceived.  However, in the great time ocean I am still born somewhere... and so I can be in a moment where I don't exist.  Interesting...

So to follow this analogy a further, time flows like a current.  What induces Time Current?  If time itself conforms to some of the conventions of Matter, then perhaps there is "time gravity" and "time attraction".  Perhaps them certain possibilities in the time ocean are more nodal than others... perhaps they force many currents to them, making them difficult to undo.  In this definition they truly could not be undone... but only "not experienced" to that observer...  which isn't quite right.  If I placed myself in to a moment where I did not exist I would not have made my personal experience unobserved... I would have still seen it in the other moments.  But the moment I was in would be without my past influences...  The "Wonderful Life" syndrome.

An interesting side effect of this could be everlasting life... hehe... What others perceive as my death may only be their observation in their own moment... I exist in a multitude of other moments.  In fact I am dead and/or dying in a multitude (perhaps an infinite number) of other moments right now.  However, my observation goes on in others.

The Garden of Eden

I was pondering the other day and thought I'd capture the ponderance...



I was thinking about the Garden of Eden and if death occurred there.  I find it hard to believe that all of creation was undying and everlasting prior to Adam and Eve mucking it up.  And even if it were, why punish all of creation just because of a couple of dumb humans?  So my premise is that nature was as it is today in the Garden of Eden... the natural order of renewal and death already established and that Adam and Eve were a part of it.



So what really happened with the Tree of Knowledge?  It couldn't have just been about sex--at least not entirely.  What I thought of in my ponderance wasn't carnal knowledge but simply the knowledge of life and death.  Prior to this awareness, Adam & Eve only knew that life "was" and that the Sun rose and set.  Living in complete harmony in a system designed to be perpetual.  Certainly the cycle of life went on all around them.  Perhaps God kept them from being part of the food chain, perhaps not.  Is the deer constantly fearful of being eaten by the lion?  Or does it just *live* in its moment of food, sleep, mating and raising offspring.  The moment of death would be fearful for certain, but is the deer aware of this?  Is not knowing something of a blessing?



To follow this thought to the end, I would think that the Tree of Knowledge made Adam and Eve aware of the cycle and then somehow made them seem not a part of it.  The very thoughts we have of being external to nature and not part of the cycle are our gated buttresses keeping us out of the Garden today... I think the knowledge Adam and Eve discovered was self awareness and the perception of our own deaths.

My Anniversary

Today is my 3 year anniversary... and this is something I wrote...



There is nothing compared to the beauty of the stars above

nothing compared to the heat of the fire within

They dance and shine with the light of love

They glow with passion for the hopelessly smitten



Often when my heart is low and full of doubts

When demons circle and darkness looms

I remember her in our home and out

I picture her and my spirit blooms



She is so much to me

She is all of my life

More than I can be

My Wife

Summary of Easter

I just wanted an excuse to post this compromising photo of my mother-in-law.  Yes that is a big ol' blue bottle of wine.  We do live in Kansas after all.

Easter at grandma's was fabulous.  Great family, great food, great kids, great loot.  In no particular order.  While the whole weekend had it's ups and downs, I still had a good time.

I've been voraciously consuming data on opening my own business.  I'm considering a franchise outlet.  I may be crazy, but anything is better than what I've got going on now.  Since I seem to love to play games and folks always say "do what you love" I'm going to try to do it.  I'll give y'all more later.

Random Stuff

Yesterday and today have been pretty good. I'm between project phases at work and that makes everything a lot easier. The little road trip was really good even if it was a sad event. The weather is turning here and everything is in bloom. Amy has a big test today, but after that we should cruize in to a smooth weekend with the kids.



I've been jonesin' to play some d20 Modern lately. I have a swirl of ideas I'd like to play out. Guns, angels, and werewolves... oh my.



Friday is tax return day. Gotta love that.



Got in to a 30-man raid in World of Warcraft last night. It was alright, the group I was with had a bit of a whacked loot method that left me with nothing... Sucks to get in to a 30-man and not get a single drop. But it was a fun to play in a new instance. I have 2 characters at 60th level, one has pretty crummy kit, the other has passible kit. I have another character at 52 that I've been working on building up in my spare game time.



I'm not sure what I'll do this weekend. Probably do stuff around the house. We've made some slow progress at finishing it. Seeing the new stuff go up is pretty cool.



Hey, life is pretty good. Things change all the time. Its hard to remember to look forward to the happy unexpected things. Too easy to get down in the crummy things.



I had some insights in to time again... Obviously we perceive time in a linear fashion, but what if we didn't. Imagine time as an immense ocean that you could swim in... up, down, side to side... The concept of past and future would disappear. Think of what that would mean... no concept of "past". All the events you remember would just be different spots in the ocean... perhaps even all event at once. This creates the closest approximation of "forever" I can really hold in my head. There are no beginnings or endings. For some reason our consciousness holds on to the thread of time thru the ocean of possibilites. If we could but learn to swim...