Murpy

Murpy (MUR-PEE): adj

1. To feel murped

A random word made up word from my teens.  When you just felt sort of... murpy.  Not really crappy or totally bummed--just murpy.  When you don't really have anything to really complain about, but for some reason (real or imagined) you just don't feel excited to be here in general.



I could go on about a litany of things that aren't Great!(tm), but really I got nothing to complain about.  But I think about every human wishes for "more" no matter what. 



Sometimes I feel "stuck".  Not like stuck with the people in my life (I love all of my family dearly and wouldn't want anything any different than it is today).  But just stuck in general.  In the last 5 years there have been several limits I've hit for which I had no ability to overcome.  Again I don't want to complain because I have waaaay more than I need, but ya'know.  When you hit a wall and can't get over it the question becomes "What now?"  Do you set up camp and live at the wall? Take a tangent? Go back?  This is an over-simple analogy, but you get the idea.



No matter what you do in life, somewhere sometime you are going to run in to something you just can't change.  So you have to decide what to do with it.  You have to find some way to live with.  But you probably can't make yourself happy about it.  Somedays this is easy, sometimes hard and sometimes it's just mildly annoying (like today). 



Well anyways, I've spent enough time murping (yes it's a verb too).



Maybe we can all have a murp party sometime where we can all murp about the stuff we know we can't change but have to live with anyway.  Maybe we can even paint silly faces on them... *ponder*