Theory of Cosmic Evolution

Being from Kansas issues about Evolution are commonly on my mind.  Not because I really have any doubts that evolution works or that statements like "God put the dinosaur fossils in the earth to test our faith" to be absurd... But mostly because its facinating.  On one level it obvious that the creatures of the Earth of closely related and yet on another level the mechanic of evolution (slight variations over millions of years) seems not quite right.  I don't have the answer, but I do have a concept...  The condition of DNA replication is the lifeform itself not the individual species that use it.



All living things on this planet have DNA and cellular structure that replicates to create larger organism with traits and abilities... DNA is therefore highly adaptable.  Inside DNA is all the complexity of all life.  The codes to everything are contained within.  DNA itself is a mechanism to create our type of life.  DNA can survive in a multitude of forms.



I imagine then that the whole Earth is common DNA organism of many parts and the instict to survive goes beyond each species but to the whole survival of DNA.  For as long as there is a single replicating strand... life could conceivable repopulate an entire planet.  Perhaps someday our planet will be smashed by rock large enough to shatter the world and piece of our world will spin off to then someday smash in to another warm rock.  Will then we seed that world with our bacteria? Will that world grow to be not too much different than ours?  Maybe it will be dogs that develop large brains and opposable thumbs, but regards our DNA will spread and follow similar design criteria...  Maybe our world was seeded in the same way... and there are other planets out there with DNA based development.  They will be grandly different, but I bet we will be shocked at the similarities.

Haunted (fiction)

She comes to me in this place.  On cold, gray days when the stone seems to absorb the heat of a touch she comes to sit next to me.  Even though I long for the touch, her hands are cold.  Her body pressed next to me on the stone bench provides only a chill.  But my heart leaps with boundless joy.  She's come back to me.  She's come back. 

I can almost make out her outline, but she disappears when I look right at her.  At the edge of my vision I can make out indistinct outlines of red curls and blue eyes.  Her body is silhouetted in something white and flowing.  She looks at me.  She always looks at me.  In her presence I remember everything so clearly.  I become an old man laughing at nothing—muttering replies to unspoken questions.  I don’t care.

The wind blows making my eyes tear.  Though the blurred tears she almost comes in to focus and I can see her face, but only for a moment and she’s gone again.  Her touch seems to ignore the many layers of warm clothing I always wear when I visit.  She waits so long to show.  My joints ache and my heat is nearly drained away as if my very life is needed to summon her.  Sometimes she doesn’t come.  When the sun sinks below the trees I can’t stay any longer.  It’s a struggle to stand—to stagger back to the world of the living.  Crying from the wind or remorse or the pain… or the loss.

Her presence never wavers when she does come.  We talk in our way until the sun sets.  I try to stay longer, but I’m too weak.  I can’t stand the painful cold.  I think she understands.  When I stand to go she remains sitting.  She watches me as I walk away.  Even as I leave the cemetery behind I can see her sitting there.  I always leave behind the flowers I bring.  They are always gone when I return.

I know she wants me to stay.  I know someday I will. 

Ray Charles

Hey I know it's cheesy to see a movie and then be all like "this is so cool" but I am...



I saw Ray about 2 weeks ago and it was so good I went out and bought some Ray Charles music (not the soundtrack by the way).  Perhaps not surprising, it is amazing.  Ray is a little out of my generation, but it is damn good music.



So if you're out there impulsing buying the latest Jessica Simpson "Look at my giant Knockers" CD, consider a little Ray Charles soul too.  It will probably last longer.

A note from my daughter

I could not love you more Dad.  I Love you to micro pieces I Love you, full bag of Love! to : Dad

A brief theory of Time

If we think of all Time as an ocean where all "moments" are like individual water molecules, then living any moment (any *possible* moment) is only a matter of putting yourself physically in the right place of the time ocean.  Each adjoining moment is related to other so by hopping from related moment to the next you create line the forms what we individually perceive as a time line.  Exactly which moment we jump to is mostly likely defined by probability.  Like a current of electrons flowing in a large conductive media we flow through the time ocean.  Our perception is of where we've been and vague idea about where we're going--a line.

Now the number of possible paths is infinite (or so large as to be nearly infinite).  Do we each have out own lines?  Is my past unique to the path I took and no other consciousness has followed me here?  Or has an infinite number of "me's" followed me to this point and now we're all branching off in the many possible directions?  Or does this universe blaze a trail through the ocean that we all share in?  With perhaps many other universes doing the same?

If I could go back and find the exact time ocean moment of my conception and prevent it, I could conceivable have no impact at all, for what I have more likely done is jump to a different moment where I was not conceived.  However, in the great time ocean I am still born somewhere... and so I can be in a moment where I don't exist.  Interesting...

So to follow this analogy a further, time flows like a current.  What induces Time Current?  If time itself conforms to some of the conventions of Matter, then perhaps there is "time gravity" and "time attraction".  Perhaps them certain possibilities in the time ocean are more nodal than others... perhaps they force many currents to them, making them difficult to undo.  In this definition they truly could not be undone... but only "not experienced" to that observer...  which isn't quite right.  If I placed myself in to a moment where I did not exist I would not have made my personal experience unobserved... I would have still seen it in the other moments.  But the moment I was in would be without my past influences...  The "Wonderful Life" syndrome.

An interesting side effect of this could be everlasting life... hehe... What others perceive as my death may only be their observation in their own moment... I exist in a multitude of other moments.  In fact I am dead and/or dying in a multitude (perhaps an infinite number) of other moments right now.  However, my observation goes on in others.

The Garden of Eden

I was pondering the other day and thought I'd capture the ponderance...



I was thinking about the Garden of Eden and if death occurred there.  I find it hard to believe that all of creation was undying and everlasting prior to Adam and Eve mucking it up.  And even if it were, why punish all of creation just because of a couple of dumb humans?  So my premise is that nature was as it is today in the Garden of Eden... the natural order of renewal and death already established and that Adam and Eve were a part of it.



So what really happened with the Tree of Knowledge?  It couldn't have just been about sex--at least not entirely.  What I thought of in my ponderance wasn't carnal knowledge but simply the knowledge of life and death.  Prior to this awareness, Adam & Eve only knew that life "was" and that the Sun rose and set.  Living in complete harmony in a system designed to be perpetual.  Certainly the cycle of life went on all around them.  Perhaps God kept them from being part of the food chain, perhaps not.  Is the deer constantly fearful of being eaten by the lion?  Or does it just *live* in its moment of food, sleep, mating and raising offspring.  The moment of death would be fearful for certain, but is the deer aware of this?  Is not knowing something of a blessing?



To follow this thought to the end, I would think that the Tree of Knowledge made Adam and Eve aware of the cycle and then somehow made them seem not a part of it.  The very thoughts we have of being external to nature and not part of the cycle are our gated buttresses keeping us out of the Garden today... I think the knowledge Adam and Eve discovered was self awareness and the perception of our own deaths.

My Anniversary

Today is my 3 year anniversary... and this is something I wrote...



There is nothing compared to the beauty of the stars above

nothing compared to the heat of the fire within

They dance and shine with the light of love

They glow with passion for the hopelessly smitten



Often when my heart is low and full of doubts

When demons circle and darkness looms

I remember her in our home and out

I picture her and my spirit blooms



She is so much to me

She is all of my life

More than I can be

My Wife